and i'm out...of a job

original resignation letter edited for content


(insert supervisor's name here) is not the reason I am giving my 30 days notice. But I have concerns, and quite frankly I'm irritated.

I do not think it is appropriate for a supervisor to attempt to process a crisis intervention with a direct care worker, especially one that may become physical, during that intervention. Stepping in and relieving me from the primary staff role would be acceptable, and has certainly happened. Processing with me afterward is the way we program for our clients. But giving me notes while I am attempting to intervene violates the very basic tenant of T.C.I. of avoiding over-stimulation, in this case with both clientele and staff. This is sufficient, but not the entirety of my concern.

I understand that taking on a supervisor role that did not previously exist entails the setting of boundaries. But when these boundaries immediately create an atmosphere of antagonism, we are again inflicting on our workplace what we specifically deny of our relationships with our clients.

And while I'm at it, my recent review was so mediocre it gave me pause. If after 4 ½ years I'm only just barely exceeding expectations, I'm in the wrong line of work. Writing resignation letters is not much of a contribution to the agency, but I hope people understand what's at stake. I'm not the only person at (insert site here) that feels a similar sort of concern. I may substitute at (insert other site here) if this letter doesn't make me a pariah. If that doesn't work I'll check into per diem work with Community Services. If that doesn't work I'll either move down South and find a teaching job, or move back to California. Regardless, I value the time I have spent working with (insert agency here). I have learned much (I thought), and feel as though I have made a positive impact on the lives of some of the children I have worked with.

existence is tenuous

listening to npr this morning i heard them start a year long audio expose on climate change and its effects on people around the world. should be interesting. i really meant to write up a broadcast from last week about the high incidence of sexual abuse and assault on women of native (First Nations) ancestry in this country, but it was so fucking sad i couldn't bring myself to do it.

but it was interesting that it would coincide with the day i made a big decision in my life. my head is so cloudy and i am so emotionally unstable i have decided to take a big break. my birthday is on the 28th and i have decided to go without drinking, smoking, and sex until midnight of my birthday. i may also give notice today so that the 28th is my last day of employment. but i gotta write a new letter. i should post the original though cause it's pretty hardcore and makes me laugh.



wish me luck cause i'm gonna need it.